In The Nothing – June 10, 2026 (212/365)

We need to keep typing. We need to keep writing.

We need to get things down, get things out, get things defined.

Writing remains to be the tool of choice, in my desire to be a precise man.

8 For even if I made you sorry with my letter, I do not regret it; though I did regret it. For I perceive that the same epistle made you sorry, though only for a while. 9 Now I rejoice, not that you were made sorry, but that your sorrow led to repentance. For you were made sorry in a godly manner, that you might suffer loss from us in nothing. 10 For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces death. 11 For observe this very thing, that you sorrowed in a godly manner: What diligence it produced in you, what clearing of yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what vehement desire, what zeal, what vindication! In all things you proved yourselves to be clear in this matter.2 Corinthians 7:8-11

If I’m to be honest, I do detect some semblance or trace of diligence… Just last week I was dragging myself around, even if I knew I could do better, or conduct myself more passionately. Here and now, I’m not saying the dragging has completely gone, but, there is diligence.

There’s no death. Sure, I don’t see any zeal, but it does feel, right at this very moment, that the Holy Spirit alive in me (and in all of us who have chosen to believe in Christ) is working a healthy fear of the Lord (infinitely superior over terror of things outside and grief of things inside); He is working that diligence, that indignation, that vindication.

Facing the darkness, we appreciate the light.

I feel at this moment of processing, I’m being naturally brought to awareness of the Holy Spirit, faithfully convicting me, as I believe He is faithfully convicting the entire world.

In my case it doesn’t even matter if I’ve just immersed myself in all (or, let’s be honest, ‘all’ my mind could wrap itself around, anyway) that’s happening in this temporal and finite reality… Christ’s words are true, especially where He mentioned that the Holy Spirit convicts the world.

We’re in a time and place when data and knowledge easily overwhelm all of our senses, and we are in a constant state of being overstimulated but underwhelmed. Brain bursting, but bored. But we praise God all the more, because the stream of eternal Truth is constant – Through it all, and above it all, the Holy Spirit convicts us: of sin, righteousness, and judgment.

(Sin)

Because of Adam’s disobedience sin entered the world, and the wages of sin is death. The entire world, therefore, was subject to a fate of death and ultimate oblivion. We were rotten to the core, and no matter how well-intentioned we were, all our works were as filthy rags, from the smallest acts to the highest of accomplishments.

(Righteousness)

In the fullness of time, God demonstrated His love for us, by way of His Son, Jesus Christ, being born as One of us. He grew, all the time walking with us, weeping and laughing with us, eating and drinking with us. Eventually, He began His ministry, calling on one and all to repent, revealing the true nature of the Father, and the Kingdom of God by way of miracles of infinite power, and words of eternal wisdom. Yet the culmination of all His ministry was in the greatest demonstration of God’s everlasting love – Jesus Christ, the Son of Man, lay down His life.

Christ took all the consequences of sin by way of a most excruciating and humiliating death, being fully rejected by the Father. He became sin that we who would believe in Him would become His righteousness. He drained the cup down to the dregs, and when there was no sin left to take, and no death left to suffer, He rose from the dead and walked out of the grave, a new creation.

After 40 days, Christ ascended into heaven, as part of God’s will to never leave us nor forsake us – He ascended for the Holy Spirit to descend, that as He was seated at the right hand of the Father, so we were seated in the heavenly places – our unbreakable union with the Father guaranteed by the righteousness and reconciliation won by Christ at the cross.

(Judgment)

At the end of time, the heavens shall cast sin, death, Satan and all his angels into the lake of fire and everlasting torment. This evil we see in the world will eventually find its ultimate end, and we shall enjoy fellowship with the Almighty Creator and God of Gods, our Father, now with our entire renewed and redeemed beings, forever and ever. 

I believe it is divine timing to be reminded of this at this time of reflection, and at this time of fire and darkness.

The Truth prevails and allows us to stand, in spite of all confusion and anxiety.

The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit are with us, now and always, through all the movement.

‘Behold’, Christ says, He makes all things new.

I want Him to make all things new. I want to say, I want a fresh start.

With myself. With my mom. With the house. With ministry. With my money. With my family. With Michelle.

In the renewal, I want to continue to flow, to thank God, and to trust God.

To God – Father, Son, and Holy Spirit – The salvation we have is complete, the reconciliation you gave is absolute; Our renewal, revival, and redemption are more than mere concepts, but are worked into all aspects of our being, from the first second of our existence to the final breath of our physical bodies and/or our being caught up into eternity. It is from Your finished work that we work, and from the direction You took we have an idea of our own next steps.

I thank You, God; I thank You, Lord Almighty – for each and every time I find myself in the dumps, overwhelmed, disappointed, frustrated and anxious, You always demonstrate Your divine faithfulness to me.

In this case, in this instance, I’ll be honest. I may not be ‘feeling’ all motivated, inspired, or otherwise ‘on fire’ to do what needs to be done to lose weight, to be at peace with the fact that I’m probably never going to talk to Michelle again, to ‘get back’ all the time and money I allowed to be wasted and scammed away from me, to make up for the consequences of my decisions leaving impact far beyond myself, hurting my family, my ministry, and so on.

I’m dragging myself to work according to the authority entrusted to me, at home, and at church. I know what should be done regarding systems that need to be changed, and mindsets that need to be renewed… I know the urgency of it all, but for some reason I’m making it more urgent for me to just slack, and to just be comfortable, holding so much for tomorrow when it could be done today.

But, still, I thank You, Lord, because the Truth of who You are, what You’ve done for me and to me, what I have in You and through You, and, again, who You are in all of it… That stands no matter how overwhelming things get.

I thank You, God, because even in all of this, You are for me and not against me. You are with me, never leaving nor forsaking me; Through all Christ has done, nothing can ever separate me from Your love, and everything – yes, everything reminds me of Your everlasting love.

God, I said I wanted a fresh start, and I do mean it. I want miracles. I want breakthroughs. I want what Peter Gibbons asked that occupational hypnotherapist – for You to just ‘zonk’ me.

There’re so many reasons to have godly sorrow. Please show me Your goodness.

For the unity of Your body, for the expansion of Your kingdom, and for the utmost glory of Your name.

Amen.

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