It’s around that time again. That time when I have everything in my head. It’s my fault because I’ve been keeping it all in there, and I’ve been having a hard time organizing all of it, or even letting it out.
But here’s where I let it out. And as always… As always, I will start with saying that the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, and His mercies never come to an end. And it’s amazing to me now, to say that His mercies are never ending; For, see, they never end, and apparently His steadfast love never ends as well, and this stands no matter what is on my mind, what I see with my eyes, or what I’m grasping with my heart – No matter how thoughts and feelings and even facts go so hard to drag me down, it still remains true that God’s love is not only steadfast, but it keeps on going. God’s mercy also keeps on going, even if old consequences show their ugly face, or if new encounters try their darndest to intimidate us.
That’s what’s getting to me now – God’s love and mercy present in my past, present and my future. God’s love and mercy ministering where I could not go; God’s love and mercy present in my past, realized now after so many years. God’s love and mercy here and now in my present, no matter what I’m feeling, and no matter what I’m experiencing right now. And with that said, I should probably take it in – Sure as God’s love and mercy is, from my present point of view, ‘retroactively’ working on and in my past, and as sure as God’s love and mercy has never failed, nor has it diminished, even during these present moments… So we could say that His love and mercy will surely be there for me, and for all I’ll be concerned about in the future.
I’m thankful to the Lord, for His mercy. His mercies are as high as the heavens are from the earth, and these same mercies are new with every morning – great mercy yesterday, great mercy new and fresh today, and fresh and great mercy for us tomorrow, until our physical end, until the end of time, and beyond. It’s by this mercy towards us that we are able to express, explode, and shine mercy to those who would see us, talk of us, hear us, and so on.
I’m thankful to the Lord, for His love. Yes, His everlasting love. His love that endures forever – His lovingkindness (that is, kindness that comes with love automatically, and vice versa) ENDURES, forever! His love that is not only everlasting, but steadfast – resolute and committed, dedicated, devoted and dependable.
Help me, Father. For in these times when I know of His mercy and his love, I’m being sabotaged by the old mindsets that persist – mindsets that insist in my pleasure coming in the guise of ‘rest’, or along the lines of ‘it’s just now, it’s not often’. Indeed, I think that it’s the Holy Spirit alive in me praying with me in this moment – and I pray, the same prayer David had, after Nathan rebuked him:
‘Restore to me the Joy of my Salvation.’
Indeed, heavenly Father, I do sing of your steadfast love, and I do proclaim the eternal and faithful nature of your mercy – but I need Your help! I need You, in all that You are which is absolutely overwhelming; Do not allow me to be so easily baited, do not allow me to be so quick to sway! Restore to me – Re-ESTABLISH me in the same love that You’ve loved me with all this time, ESTABLISH me, deeper than what the world would have me stand on, and further beneath all that I think is best for myself; ESTABLISH me in Your love, and Your mercy!
I pray this now, fully aware of all that’s at stake, in my own personal life, and panning out to all the relationships I have, all the way to all that I see happening around the world; Luke says that the hearts of men will fear… But we shall stand on Your Word of Life, Christ Himself saying that He loves us with an everlasting Love; a Love that is perfect, one that casts out all our fear.
We shall stand on Your word of life, which has broken our old hearts of stone, giving us hearts of flesh, making us new vessels that hold in new wine.
Father, by Your love, help me to make the most of my time, without stressing too much about it. By Your mercy, help me to remember how You are the great Source of all of my being. I feel drained, I feel tired, I feel as if I’ve dug myself into a hole I couldn’t climb out of.
I’m not enjoying what’s going on. I’m aware, that if I’m not feeling the same way about what’s going on in my own mind and body and all of my being… I’m probably saying that I’m not enjoying out of a mindset geared to complain before anything else – but the thing is, I’m not enjoying what’s going on, as I look from the outside in! And I know You’re alive in me, and I’m alive in You, but I guess it’s just dawning on me now, more than any other time in these recent months and years – that I do need You, more than ever!
I’ve gone through all this song and dance, and I’ve beat around the bush to get back to where I started… yet now, I say it, fully aware of the darkness that surrounds me – again, with feelings:
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.
His mercies never come to an end.
Friends, if you find it in your heart to pray for me, please do. And I thank you in advance, and I ask that the Lord blesses you seven times back the blessings you’ve asked for me.
Let us stay strong in the Lord, taking heart, because of His steadfast Love, because of His everlasting Mercy – all seen through no less than the Lord, our Savior Jesus Christ.
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