Stasis – July 19, 2025 (260/365) – JB's Personal Brain Defragmenter

Give glory and praise to the King of Kings and to the Lord of Lords, for He is worthy.

In our realizing how our God is worthy of praise, it is natural for us to remember the great things He has done. In our recalling what He has done, we could not help but remember Christ and His finished work.

I know, I’m saying all this again. I’m writing all this again. Sounding like a broken record, writing repeatedly about the same thing over and over again…

…but that’s the thing, isn’t it? It sounds the same, but the love of the Lord today is just for today. It may all be similar, absolutely familiar, but definitely different, just as every day is different. So, sure, my choice of words will stay the same, and at best my vocabulary is stretched to its limit… but the Truth remains that our infinite and eternal God’s everlasting love is here and for us here and now, abundant yesterday, fresh today and consistent forever.

And it’s because of Christ. All because of Jesus. Yep, you can’t be giving praise to the Father without remembering and adoring the Son, and naturally acknowledging the Spirit, with whom you are glorifying the Lord.

Thank You, Father. Thank You, Jesus. Thank You, Holy Spirit.

Thank You today, for today. Thank You for the fog, the cool winds, the comfort of warm clothes. Thank You, that in spite of these storms, our senses are open to the beauty to behold only during these times. Thank You, Lord, for new perspectives to Your grace and mercy, in the grey.

Thank You for ministering to our hearts and minds, teaching us, renewing us, transforming us. Truly, You are working in and through us even when we don’t see it, even when we don’t feel it. Thank You, everlasting God, for Your movement and Your lovingkindness working in our midst, all around us, working in us and through us, working in all things concerning us, whether within our awareness, or out of our senses and influence.

Thank You, Lord! The Truth remains: You are for us, never against us. There is no condemnation in You, for You cause everything to work for the good of the body of Christ. Thank You, Lord, for Your enduring, unyielding presence in us – truly, nothing can ever separate us from Your love! Thank You, thank You so very much for this time of remembrance, for this time of gratitude, for this time of renewal!

Glory and honor to Your name, now and forever!

All hail the power of Jesus’ name,

Let angels, prostrate, fall!

Bring forth the Royal diadem and crown Him Lord of all!

It’s much later in the day. We lost power at around 3 in the afternoon. It’s 11pm, and power just got back.

I’m thinking to myself, did I lose all this time? Was it all wasted? I had so much in mind for me to do, so much to write, so much to read. I needed to prepare for the massive mountain and the increase in difficulty in the workload starting next week… and all of that was pushed back by, oh, 8 hours.

Was it a loss? When the power was cut I was on my phone for a bit, before deciding to head to bed to ~~nap~~ meditate. Obviously I hopped in there knowing I wouldn’t be sleeping, fully aware of the 2 cups of (really good) coffee I had earlier in the morning… So I sort of forced myself to think and breathe, and breathe and think.

Later on in the afternoon I decided to just hop out of bed and pray. To let it all out to the Lord. To come as I was, saying whatever came into my head, dumping anything and everything I could… and it all boiled down to me just crying out to the Lord for help – for all that’s coming in the short term, for all I’ve been longing for through these months and years, for all I’m coping with, for all I want and couldn’t get as easily as I could before… I was frustrated.

But in all this, I’ve been led to think. To consider something, which I believe came up by way of the Holy Spirit. For me to declare that the Lord helps me first. Instead of figuring out what to do, or rather, the first move to make, no, I ask the Lord to help me first – to make the first moves, or even to move fully.

‘You helped me first. You help me first‘ – These words expected my resistance but were insistently repeated in my head… and I had to write some of it down on paper, with the assistance of cellphone flashlights.

You helped me. You help me first.

Just as You loved me and just as You love me first, You help me first.

Long have I proclaimed that it is You who we seek as the blessing of all blessings… That the presence of the Source of all that is good is all that we need, and all we ought to seek, for Your presence IS Your Kingdom and Your Righteousness.

In these down-times without power and without the internet but not without the Light, I am boldly led – in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the power of the Holy Spirit – to demonstrate for myself, what I’m now led to believe is a facet and perspective of what it means to live by faith and not by sight, what it means to live according to the Spirit and not according to the flesh – That is, for me to actually APPRECIATE Your manifest, divine presence in my life as I am present in Your courts, by actually asking You to help me.

Beyond what my mind is comfortable in believing now… Yes, Father, I am ASKING for Your direct interference, and Your manifest movement and involvement – again, for all that’s coming in the short term, for all I’ve been longing for through these months and years, for all I’m coping with, for all I want and couldn’t get as easily as I could before… Because I acknowledge that I have the peace beyond all understanding, but I simply cannot stay in this existence in currently in, this season, this frustration.

Is it all of You to move? Am I to move, Father? Already I am thinking of first moves. In DBMS terms, I’m thinking of attempts to connect to old databases, aware of the increase of data we have now; I’m thinking of cutting out data that’s a liability, cutting links to other databases, and deleting rows and columns completely.

Writing these things, I still feel fear. I still feel anxiety. I’ve found pleasure in this old data at one point, and it’s frankly tough to break. They’re apparently big deals in my heart and in my mind. Consequently, in my being and in my existence. You help me first, Lord! HELP me, in the name of Jesus!

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