I decided to jump back into the workforce, applied, and started training last June 2.
Things back then weren’t really taking off, but looking back, I didn’t really think things would escalate this fast. I’m one month in and I’m thinking that the choice to work again was what I needed; It’s going WAY beyond me just securing constant income… this is me getting into some sort of redemption arc.
Two things I want to share: (1) It helps to plot systems into workflows to streamline things, and (2) prayer gets you realizing how absolutely hopeless you are on your own, and hopelessness gets you praying.
At wits end, we pray.
We pray for everything out of our control, or beyond our control, and even within our control.
Anyway. I shaved since that picture. Needed to get an NBI clearance again, after 20 years (insert lol emoji here)
More updates since that last post:
- Still doing that Daily Activity Log.
- Work training schedule has me up an hour earlier than my shift to banish the cobwebs and to bring the heart rate up, right before a cold bath and hot coffee.
- Been lifting a lot less. Also, I’ve needed to (literally) step down, from 12.5k steps to 10k steps a day. It’s the beginning of the rainy season, so I’ve been doing a lot of walking workouts indoors, as well as shadow boxing.
- Honestly, I haven’t been eating as clean since starting work. The one-meal turned into a feast, and the feasting lasted much longer than just an hour window, more than once.
- No more detox pills, but I have been faithful with my Cinnamon/ACV shots before sleeping. Oh, also, as much as possible, I do finish food intake 3-5 hours before sleeping.
- There was a time I needed the phone in the room to serve as my alarm, but I’ve fixed that – using another device as an alarm. Still reading Scripture first thing in the morning, and reading with the TrueDark glasses before sleeping.
- I haven’t been fasting on Sundays as much as I want to, because I usually spend time with the church team after service, and that almost always involves food.
Haven’t checked my weight on the scale, but I am ready to be disappointed.
But hey, in spite of all this, I’m thinking things are still looking up. God bless you!
Okay, that wasn’t necessarily the exact text I shared on Instagram… only because they had character limits.
Two things from here: There was text that I was supposed to add on to another post as a more immediate follow-up to my last (first) post about what I’ve been up to since March 1. Let me go through it now.
You know the last time I went this hard on my body to lose weight, and well even now, I had one thing in mind, like a mantra of sorts – That I wanted to get my body back.
Thing is, now that I’ve had to make changes, I keep seeing myself in the mirror, and sure, I could be better, but I’m more or less okay with how I look now. It’s not as much now for me to ‘get my body back’ more than it is for me to be content.
Back then, I wanted to follow that up with me wanting to get my mind back. To that end I went as far as doing Mindvalley stuff with Jim Kwik and yeah, sure, it helped… but now I think we’re going to have to make more moves to get that to happen.
Of course, I’m not so sure I can say the same thing about my mind – You know, how I’m to be ‘content’ with the current state of my mind and, consequently, how I operate.
Or maybe that’s exactly what I want – to be happy with my mind as I am with my body. And in the case of my body, sure, it’s disciplined – not as consistent, but disciplined… and I think I want the same thing for my mind. Because as it stands, I don’t think I’m happy with my mind. I could definitely do better.
So with that being said, I’m going to follow this up with what I’ve been doing so far to get my mind back, and also what’s been hindering me or holding me back, e.g.:
Bad stuff:
1. Overgaming – I’ve been playing Dune: Spice Wars for, oh, at least 4 hours a day. That’s not good at all.
2. Porn – Sad that I still see the need to ‘indulge’ at least once a week. Not good either. In fact, it’s sabotage. Not just mental junk food, mental poison.
3. Watching something while eating – Making me eat more. I should eat, then watch. Probably not at the same time.
More to come.
Okay, earlier, I said two things, and the second thing I want to share is that there are two MORE things (confused yet?) on top of what I’ve been learning in this season (re: Prayer, and Systems)… and they came in the form of a rebuke, and a reminder.
I was rebuked by my brother, my good brother who I think is one of the few folks who can tell me what he told me without me getting all defensive and pissed off.
I was reminded by way of a friend I’ve not been keeping tabs with, and will eventually, regarding a series she recommended I go through.
The rebuke and reminder are as follows: Grow some balls, and stay pure.
Don’t just feel the faith, be on fire. Don’t just take heart, take courage.
Don’t just keep the faith, but keep the purity. Stay bright and in the light, shine brighter in the darkness.
That’s right. We’re praying more than ever in this hour, but at the same time we’re paying more attention to detail, and to the minute processes of systems. I mean, it’s all falling into what Naval has been talking about all along regarding specific knowledge – You really do need to be specific about your knowledge.
People value SMEs – Subject Matter Experts; But I see that a very valuable skill for me to have at this time is not necessarily tied to a specific Subject Matter… but, rather, to be a Subject Matter Expert in being a Subject Matter Expert.
Ultralearning comes back to mind, but I suppose one way for us in the body of Christ to get closer to being ‘that guy’ is to place our trust in the Expert of Experts, the Maker of all Matter who Subjected Himself to sin and death for us to live: Prayer (that is, back and forth communication with the Creator of All) makes us more adept in being Subject Matter Experts… in all things regarding Subject Matter Experts.
Sorry, I know this is all just word salad but I’m just trying to put it all together here. Exciting stuff.
And, yeah, apparently in our prayer and communication we’re more focused (as in specific knowledge), we’re more courageous (growing balls to actually do stuff like drive in places I’ve been scared of driving in), and we’re more devoted to the progression associated with purity.
Sure, I’ve been gaining weight, I’ve lost consistency in some matters… but I tell you, I HAVE been praying more. I HAVE been getting back to the Word, more.
More to come, sure…
Things are looking up, sure…
And all for the greatest glory of our Savior.
As I keep saying in my workout video posts… Let’s keep at it.
Amen.
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