Been a while since I did some writing, some unloading, some defragmenting. Life has been going on, things towards and against my favor alike have popped up, and I’ve been blindsided – for the most part, out of my own actions.
Here to set the record straight. Here to let it all out.
After all, our God and our Father is faithful and true.
Psalm 77
In the Day of Trouble I Seek the Lord
TO THE CHOIRMASTER: ACCORDING TO JEDUTHUN. A PSALM OF ASAPH.
1 I cry aloud to God, aloud to God, and he will hear me.
2 In the day of my trouble I seek the Lord; in the night my hand is stretched out without wearying; my soul refuses to be comforted.
3 When I remember God, I moan; when I meditate, my spirit faints. Selah
Feels like this as of late, where I know that the best thing to do is to consult the Word, and to choose Life – That is, to be more intentional towards the Living Word, and to purposely, decisively look towards the Word of Life… But, my Savior, I am so sorry. I’ve allowed myself to be distracted, I’ve allowed myself to lose control and to just cast You aside, by way of prioritizing my own comfort and pleasure. So much so that when I do try to take a step, and a couple steps back towards recovery and towards improvement and actual progression, well, as the Psalmist writes, my spirit also faints.
It’s as if the deception of how enormous a task it is to ‘get back’ into the light has really gotten to me… but, see, now that I’m sharing about it, now that I’m writing about it and letting it all out, I’m seeing past the lies and towards the Truth, that’s been so close and so near to me all this time. And it’s made so available to me, so present to me – not because of anything I am or anything I did, but, I recall, and I cause my entire being to recall and remember: It’s all because of my dear Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, and all He has done, all He is doing, and all He will do.
Thank You, Jesus. We’ve barely gotten into this Psalm, and, already, I’m feeling better. Feeling more precise. Praise God, from whom all blessings flow.
4 You hold my eyelids open; I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
5 I consider the days of old, the years long ago.
6 I said, “Let me remember my song in the night; let me meditate in my heart.”
Then my spirit made a diligent search:
7 “Will the Lord spurn forever, and never again be favorable?
8 Has his steadfast love forever ceased? Are his promises at an end for all time?
9 Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has he in anger shut up his compassion?” Selah
The seasons of the past have been weighing so much on my mind recently – of times when I had plenty, and of the resultant condemnation that follows after losing it all. The scorn you force upon yourself so when others figure you out, whatever they say isn’t as painful. The pleasures and comfort of yesterday seem so much sweeter when you realize how they are gone, today.
Yet, praise God, for by the words of the Psalmist, I am brought to remember – further beyond the seasons of plenty and loss, far above the rollercoasters of emotion that we’ve thrown into, and far greater than the circuses and carnivals of this existence that we bring ourselves into: God’s faithfulness continues to be present. His steadfast love has ALWAYS been steadfast. Whether we realize it or not, His mercies are new with every morning, and all of His promises are Yes, and in Christ, Amen.
We’re the ones who fainted. We’re the ones who gave up. We’re the flawed ones who are steered back, if we aren’t steering ourselves, into calamity and missteps. But, praise the Lord, His mercy remains. His love remains. He is always for us, never against us.
10 Then I said, “I will appeal to this, to the years of the right hand of the Most High.”
11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;yes, I will remember your wonders of old.
12 I will ponder all your work,and meditate on your mighty deeds.
13 Your way, O God, is holy. What god is great like our God?
14 You are the God who works wonders; you have made known your might among the peoples.
15 You with your arm redeemed your people, the children of Jacob and Joseph. Selah
It shouldn’t be too much of a surprise that when we cause ourselves to remember the goodness of God, we automatically break out with our lips, in praise and proclamation of His goodness and greatness, crying out about His glory and grace. We cry out to Him in praise, just as much as we sing to Him in seeking, and in appeal. We remember His goodness, and call for help; Consequently, we call for help, and remember His goodness.
Indeed, we bring ourselves back to where we are – creations under a loving Creator, whose deeds are far greater than our works, and whose finished work is infinitely superior to sin.
We cry out to Him in thanks, proclaiming His holiness and His goodness, agreeing with every fiber of our being, of our salvation in and through no less than Christ.
In our regret – In MY regret, I remember my redemption.
16 When the waters saw you, O God, when the waters saw you, they were afraid; indeed, the deep trembled.
17 The clouds poured out water; the skies gave forth thunder; your arrows flashed on every side.
18 The crash of your thunder was in the whirlwind; your lightnings lighted up the world; the earth trembled and shook.
19 Your way was through the sea, your path through the great waters; yet your footprints were unseen.
20 You led your people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
Thank You, Lord. Thank You, Father. Thank You, Holy Spirit. Thank You for life and love, for Your presence.
Thank You, Father, because You are for me, and not against me.
Thank You, Lord, because nothing can ever separate me from our Father’s love, all because of what You have done.
God, thank You! Thank You! For You are faithful to cause all things to work together for the good of those who love You, and are called according to Your purpose.
Thank You, Father! For in You, there is no condemnation – You have saved me from this body of sin, through no less than Jesus Christ…
…and because of His finished work, I have been fearfully and wonderfully made into a new creation; The old has passed away, and the new has come and is all that remains – to the glory of Your name, the Name above every other name, now and forever.
Thank You so much, Lord, for everything! Thank You for this time! Thank You, that even as my body and mind are ministered to, we give thanks, and in our giving thanks, You minister to our entire being, according to Your infinite glory and your eternal grace.
Yes, through Christ, You minister to us and all that concerns us, according to Your boundless power, and Your timeless wisdom.
All praise and glory to Your name, and to Your name, alone. Thank You for everything! Thank You, God! Thank You, Father!
Halleluyah! Amen.
194510/365000
JB's Personal Brain Defragmenter 
Leave a comment